Charlie Brown
You think I get the message when theres another Pilot down?
All the devils with the halo's and the beautiful capes, they take them to the flames...
Please Jesus, dont have a hollow hand.
I wrote this last night. Right now my state of mind could not be more different than it was then. This morning was 16 miles followed by 40 laps in the pool before one of the most draining mornings I have had. I wish I could float into a really long deep sleep right now.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Since my last post, Ive logged in 2 runs.
One was 6 miles - uninteresting and a 14 miler this morning/afternoon. Its been a revelation working out in the middle of the day in this humidity. It challenges my mind and body in ways that I may not have fully appreciated a few years ago. Its nice to willingly switch off the sounds of traffic around you in the middle of the day. One sweats more than ever - people stare at you more than ever and you know what I realised? I really dont care :-) and *that* is freeing.
Compartmentalizing feelings and emotions in my head right now means that I am able to be happy again atleast some of the time. I still find joy in small things and it keeps things sane, simple and child-like. And thank God for that! I asked for strength to be able to finish my run today - I stopped twice but had to carry on - there was no other way to come back home!
14 miles 125 minutes!
One was 6 miles - uninteresting and a 14 miler this morning/afternoon. Its been a revelation working out in the middle of the day in this humidity. It challenges my mind and body in ways that I may not have fully appreciated a few years ago. Its nice to willingly switch off the sounds of traffic around you in the middle of the day. One sweats more than ever - people stare at you more than ever and you know what I realised? I really dont care :-) and *that* is freeing.
Compartmentalizing feelings and emotions in my head right now means that I am able to be happy again atleast some of the time. I still find joy in small things and it keeps things sane, simple and child-like. And thank God for that! I asked for strength to be able to finish my run today - I stopped twice but had to carry on - there was no other way to come back home!
14 miles 125 minutes!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Dark and light
I always knew how high the stakes were. Instead of being liberated by it, I found myself being nervous and polite and obsessing over every tiny detail. Walking down empty boulevards, crowded beaches, made me feel like our every step was a little momentous.
Walking into a crowded restaurant where no one speaks our language, we felt at home in another world, one with a different time zone, passionate loyalties over whatever is important. A life of spontaneity and small thrills - to be invited in one, when one knows that there is no one else we'd rather take along on those adventures.
Alot of life, and love is discovered in post-midnight passages. It is where we leave ourselves far enough behind to fully find another.
6.5 miles yesterday 58.45 exact
Walking into a crowded restaurant where no one speaks our language, we felt at home in another world, one with a different time zone, passionate loyalties over whatever is important. A life of spontaneity and small thrills - to be invited in one, when one knows that there is no one else we'd rather take along on those adventures.
Alot of life, and love is discovered in post-midnight passages. It is where we leave ourselves far enough behind to fully find another.
6.5 miles yesterday 58.45 exact
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