I wanted to post this as well. In case anyone is going through this. I have boxes and boxes of stuff that I'm giving away - some old, some fairly new. I hate throwing things away, no matter how ratty they get. Its good to have comforts in your life - a television, music collection and nice clothes. It is this attempt to clean up that I feel the need to give some of it away. I am struck however, by how much baggage we collect as we move through life. How much this stuff weighs you down, how much all of this is useless if one is truly happy. There is much that weighs on my mind. What I would not give to go back to nothing but 20 books, a pen, piece and paper and the familiar tinker of a typewriter. It was called "goodnews" back in the day; perhaps for good reason by someone like me :-)

I need to think outside of myself a bit more. I am very unhappy when all I do is focus on me. The opportunity to do things are limited here, but they are there. And I'm trying. Giving things away make me less inclined to define myself through them. Its a first step. Does anyone want alot of crap? Its free :-)))

2 miles on a friday - how things change

Running - as an activity that I do, has been very sproadic lately. My last run, apart from this morning, was my last post. It was awhile ago. I think somewhere, I started to associate running with blogging and that was SO not the root of it. I need to find why I do it in the first place - and major life changes have shaken up the very core of me. Right now I blog so I feel closer to something farther away.

I will put this down today as a matter of fact. This blog is just that....about running and about something that comes quite naturally to me. If you have ever seen me - I have the temperament of a natural athlete in the sense that I dont ever give up. I am not physically gifted, but I am mentally strong - for the most part anyway. My very strange build for a girl and even stranger legs and feet meant that I was more suited to sport that didnt require much upper body strength. I have to talk alot so mixing a sport with my need to speak was never a stretch. However, few people think they know me through this blog - and that is completely not the case. I would like to think I more than a sum of a few words. What is sure is that I am intensely private and I hate divulging things about myself - at the best of times - so I write and because you read, does not mean you know me. I think I made my point.

I ran 2 miles today. in 35 minutes. I cringe but I am not ashamed. Learn this lesson from it - run for the reward of being able to feel your lungs fill up with air - as you feel love for being alive, run not for someone else, it should transcend an experience in your life, it should transcend time and space. Run for the joy it gives, not what you can get out of it. I think that should be a goal in life itself. I am learning this lesson myself - I know it instinctively when it comes to running; but its a work in progress to know it about other aspects.

It has been nearly a year since I started blogging, almost 10 years since I first started running - the motivation has never changed.

This ones for you!

I felt like Santa's little helper this morning. From a totally unmotivared beginning, I woke up to a light and grey morning. I once asked someone I adore "when does the quest end?", and I was answered with "when one stops looking and actually starts living". Since I first opened my eyes at 4.42 am, to the time we left home at 7.21am, I had this line in my head. Its amazing how something said in passing can stay with you long after the thought passes your lips (or pen :-)).

One of the most memorable runs of my life. Not because it was particularly fast or long; it was neither infact. I feel like it was one step in my quest for self- actualization.

Thanks to God. Thanks Singapore. Thanks my new home. I love it here :-)

I havent run longer than an hour since my last post. I dont feel strong physically at the moment. The month has taken a toll on my body, I will not hide this fact. I still feel joy for it in my heart - and that to me is most important.

Ran about 2.5 miles, took a 5-6 minute time out and went off for another 3 miles in 23 or minutes.