Running - as an activity that I do, has been very sproadic lately. My last run, apart from this morning, was my last post. It was awhile ago. I think somewhere, I started to associate running with blogging and that was SO not the root of it. I need to find why I do it in the first place - and major life changes have shaken up the very core of me. Right now I blog so I feel closer to something farther away.
I will put this down today as a matter of fact. This blog is just that....about running and about something that comes quite naturally to me. If you have ever seen me - I have the temperament of a natural athlete in the sense that I dont ever give up. I am not physically gifted, but I am mentally strong - for the most part anyway. My very strange build for a girl and even stranger legs and feet meant that I was more suited to sport that didnt require much upper body strength. I have to talk alot so mixing a sport with my need to speak was never a stretch. However, few people think they know me through this blog - and that is completely not the case. I would like to think I more than a sum of a few words. What is sure is that I am intensely private and I hate divulging things about myself - at the best of times - so I write and because you read, does not mean you know me. I think I made my point.
I ran 2 miles today. in 35 minutes. I cringe but I am not ashamed. Learn this lesson from it - run for the reward of being able to feel your lungs fill up with air - as you feel love for being alive, run not for someone else, it should transcend an experience in your life, it should transcend time and space. Run for the joy it gives, not what you can get out of it. I think that should be a goal in life itself. I am learning this lesson myself - I know it instinctively when it comes to running; but its a work in progress to know it about other aspects.
It has been nearly a year since I started blogging, almost 10 years since I first started running - the motivation has never changed.
