Cope.

This is what the past few hours have been about - I dont ever want to come across to people as some religious nut. If I am completely honest, I have so many doubts about what I believe that I wonder if I believe in anything at all. I guess thats why people call it Faith. I've had too many undefinable experiences in my life to not see what I would describe as the hand of God. The intensity of emotions I sometimes feel, those feelings, one can only feel, because of the hand of God. The stars, the sunrise (something I dont miss out on), nature around us, is the hand of God.
However, what about those people who are not fortunate enough to wake up to a peaceful sunrise, who wake up war and violence - do they not see the hand of God? If they dont see it from the horrific life they are forced to live, how are they ever going to see it?

It doesnt seem fair that I have it so easy - to wake up, go for a safe run, eat breakfast, take public transportation without a care in the world, eat whatever I want for lunch, be surrounded by people who love me, and then sit around at the end of the day thinking about how good God is. Life can be so easy for anyone who chooses to make it that - it just doesnt seem fair. We can live in our self-involved fantasy world that about 1% of the population actually gets to experience and then talk about our "faith". I dont have an answer for myself today unfortunately. All I have are questions.

370 stair repeats
30 minute run (no idea how far this was)
22 laps in the pool.