We wear many "hats" in our lives. For some people, their work defines them. You dont have to guess what defines me.

If you've ever been prevented from doing something you love doing, you know the depression that comes along with it. I am a very different person when I run. I think it was Bill Bowerman who once said that a distance runner is an artist. It is true for me. I find that I can express myself the best during those few hours every morning. I feel like if I push through bad patches during a run, I can do anything, and if *that* can be accomplished, then anything can. I have always believed that. Right now, I'm not so sure. I am more confused than ever. I think I'm waiting for some sort of bell to ring, like it makes a silver lining on a cloud. Dang it! I dont know!

13 miles @ 3am.