I need to get something off my chest first and foremost. Writing on this blog has been very cathartic for me. I always have this internal chatter going on which refuses to leave me alone. Writing mundane things has been very positive in calming me down.
My entire life, I have been very successful in attracting people who were 'protective' of me. Notice the quotation marks - this means, psychopaths who have tried to cut me off from people who mean the most to me. I have always been very very close to my Mother - who has always kept junk out of my life. As Indians, we are a very traditional family, thanks largely to my Mother. Having said that, we have always been kept away from Asian superficiality. Growing up, my face, or anything unimportant like that, was never an issue at home. For the past couple of years, and moreso since I moved home, I have made a conscious effort to be around my 'own people'. As nice as it has been, I find myself lost because we could not be more different. I am becoming more *up* myself - and I absolutely *hate* that. I think my Mother can see the difference and she hates it.
Anyway, back to the point. I need to cut one person out of my life. I have already distanced myself emotionally, but its hard since, as I said before, I am very successful in attracting psychopaths - and looking at my history - of both sexes.
Now that that is out of the way. My morning:
16 slow miles - 150 minutes
12 freezing laps in the pool - this was *so* fast because I needed to get warm pronto!
push-ups at some point. I can *almost* see some definition!
1 comment:
Arranged marriage?? wait.. marriage? I'm just two years out of teenage re :P My mom's trying to play cupid.
To echo my mum: Let me find my son a random pretty girl before he finds himself a pretty random one.
I am a 20yr old and it is people of 'my kind' who are making you marathon lady. Jokes apart, my 'jog buddy' is a professor of mine. She's as fast as you and a mother of two.
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