Just as this Chapter in my life is coming to an end - me leaving Singapore, my thoughts turn to family. What are we without family - I identify myself in regards to mine - either negatively or positively. For example, "I am unlike my mother in that I love talking to strangers", or "I look awful in brown because my mother says so". This is not a huge revelation; it is something I am aware of and it is the truth.
All of us have many cups to fill that sometimes I feel like an endlessly pouring pitcher. 'Some for you, some for you, here you go honey, hold it with 2 hands, thats it'....
This is fine, better than fine. I am not complaining. Like you, I feel blessed to have cups to fill at all. And blessed in the attempt to fill them. But the factor we cannot neglect is not so much importance of filling the cups, but of replenishing the pitcher. And this is what finally snagged my heart. The reminder to all of us to stay filled, to remain connected to our source, to refill before we run dry. In an effort to do and be for everyone else, we often put ourselves last by default - thinking we can catch ourselves later, as long as everyone else is okay, we'll be okay too. And so we do this...grab a snack on the go instead of sitting down to a meal, skimp on sleep, forget to date our spouse, stuff an opinion or complaint for 'later', run in shoes that lost their cushion last spring. It's not okay. Taking care of ourselves and refilling our tank is not a luxury. It's just like gas in the car, only for most of us we drive too long with the indicator light flashing, on fumes and a prayer.
Basically I'm saying - one needs to nurture oneself before meeting every single need. This has been my greatest lesson as a distance runner. I have an endless capacity to give. but for how long - I need my needs met too.
Planned a 22-23 miler tomorrow am. Cant wait!
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